I'm a 32-year-old man who wasted much of his 20s in a state of depression and anxiety, watching too much porn and avoiding my problems. I have only had sex with two women, both of whom I was in relationships with. First girl, I got with her when I was 18 and broke up at 21. Second girl, we got together when I was 25 until just a couple of weeks ago.

I have always had this idea that fucking lots of different women is what will ultimately make me happy. My terrible self-esteem in my 20s meant that I never took the necessary action for that to happen. I got sloppy drunk a few times and got myself into a position where a hookup would've been on the cards, but being so drunk meant my dick didn't work and I didn't even try. I lack a certain ruthlessness/dominance because my Dad is, to be honest, a submissive beta, and I invariably inherited that trait.

I guess I am wondering is there a natural ceiling to how good it feels to sleep around? At 32, time is running out to make it happen. Part of me thinks I might be in for a rude awakening when I realize I still feel a certain emptiness regardless of my lay count. The other part of me is obsessed with this idea of increasing my lay count and having commitment-free sex with lots of women. Just looking for some hard-hitting truths here: am I overvaluing this idea of sleeping with multiple women or is it truly as fulfilling as I imagine it to be?