martin20 - "Oooh, what wonderful dogs!
I had a hunting dog when I was a kid. I loved her very much. But I lost her very badly, and I'm still afraid to get a new one. I am an adult, but I realize that I will have to part with my dog when his turn comes.
I'm afraid my heart won't hold out.
I still look in pet stores when I want to buy something for Nancy. Sometimes I even look at or touch toys and wonder if she will like them. The other day I saw the https://www.doggietoys.deals/product/lion-plush-squeaky-toy/ on the website and wanted to buy it. She was so cute. I think even if it's not my dog, I'll give it to someone else's dog. Maybe that would make her happy.
Don't tell me I need therapy, I know. I always discuss this issue with my therapist. But we've come to the conclusion that it helps me get my emotions out. I like to be in control and keep things to myself. And when I watch animals, I let go of control and act like a child."